Near Fort Fisher, North Carolina
February 6th 1865
I have nothing of any interest to communicate but write simply to let you know I am still here and from present appearances am likely to wait for some weeks longer. As I anticipated, my papers are delayed and have not yet let here for General Grant’s action. It’s very annoying thus to be held here of no special use to anyone and have my temper bound and all that, but I can’t help it. There may be peace before I get out of the army now. New York papers of the 3rd are full of the President’s visit to Fortress Monroe and the possible consequences. That peace is so near as that seems hardly to be believed and I am disposed. to think that nothing will come of it to cause an immediate cessation of hostilities. I most sincerely trust that the war may end but am not very sanguine of the present move. There may be peace while I write, so I will make no more wise assertions but wait the developments of a few days.
The whole thing may affect our coal operations in many ways. Unless matters look very badly, I should be disposed to go ahead. There will be no financial crash in any event, I am confident. Still peace may cause the fall in prices of material and labor to affect us favorably. You see I am going on the supposition that you have already agreed to the plan drawn up at Sing Sing. By the way, I have already written you that I have received all your letters up to January 16th and understand the subject as well as I can without talking with you personally. That plan seems to me the nest that we are likely ever to come to and the objections to it are not such as to dispose us to throw up the plan altogether. As I wrote you, act at once and don’t wait for my return. I am glad to know of your success in negotiating the loan at the Savings Soc. The amount is not too large as ew shall have use for all of it in some way or another.
I have just been interrupted by the mustering officer who called to see me in the matter of my application. He seems to think I am held for three years longer. He is wrong, I am sure, but it only serves to defat still further the papers. Confound their eyes. I am angry at this annoyance and I can tell you, once out of service, the inducement must be a very strong one that ever leads me under the yoke again. I have served three years faithfully and am ready to refer to any of my commanders for the way I have behaved. And now to be left here in this way is almost beyond my endurance. I was told today (this you need not mention) that the fact that I was going out of service is the reason I am not recommended for a Brevet Brigadier General. I don’t care for their brevets—only for the sake of Kate and you all. It’s enough that I have done something to deserve it, but I am determined to go home and to leave the service and shall do it yet. I am angry you see, so goodbye. I will write in better mood as soon as I have seen General Terry.
Yours, — A. P. R.